I have made it. My first stop. I've hit my limit on solo-miles, for now. The desire to keep my butt on the bicycle is gone. The winter days are short, leaving me cold and disappointed in the progress. I decided after 50 miles of county roads to Plainview yesterday, that I was ready for my first extended break to begin. For the next two weeks I'll be staying at my buddies house here in Lubbock. Helping out as I can. Pick up some volunteer projects. Enjoying game days with friends. Hanging out with the new friends I made back in Guthrie. Around thanksgiving I am hoping to hitch a ride with Kelsey and Clint to Denver.
Earlier this week I felt bad about quitting... especially after a few conflicting, yet encouraging, conversations with some friends. I was worried about letting people down... but as more time passes between myself and the first bicycle ride, I start to create my own path again... holding on to the confidence and trust I gained. Leaving behind the expectation of pedaling every mile. Encouraging the dance with the unknown flow.
Maybe there was enough fear instilled in me to stop.. but once I stopped, and I got over myself.. I started to think of the other things I want to do in life... rock climbing, bass jumping, surf, climb a mountain, explore the world. To think of all the stories I still get to hear. It reminds me that this is just a chance for an extended stay to visit and connect with friends.
My rough outline is to make it to Colorado, find a part or full time job at a ski resort. Learn that culture, learn how to snowboard. Meet new people. Have a good time. Figure out where I want to go when the weather warms up. Maybe international. We shall see.
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